I got a call on Thursday morning from Rosie's teacher. I did not expect this at all. Teacher sounded sad, but calm. She told me what had happened the night before...
Rosie had taken half of bottle of pills and left a note behind, telling: nobody needs me...
She did it in front of her friend who immidately called for help. Teacher came to her room and called ER and she was taken to hospital.
On Tuesday morning the same teacher called me and asked if Rosie will be returning to school. She goes to a boarding school, has been going there 4-5 years. Teacher told me, that she can come and she can start catching up with her schoolwork. It seemed good to me and I asked Rosie if she wanted to go back to school. She was very happy about it and wanted to go! I think she was getting little bored with me at home. We really did not do very much, while waiting on court case. Mostly just watching TV, spent time on the internet, went shopping and ate. Sometimes we spent time with some of my friends.
I knew she missed her schoolmates and teachers. We had a plan to go to her school and say goodbye before going to America. So, sending her to school did not seem bad idea to me.
The 2 weeks we spent together, Rosie seemed to be OK. I even asked her if she wanted to cut herself again. She said, she did not have a reason to do that.
When I sent her to school, I told her:"Promise me, you will not cut yourself again! Or you will have to go back to the Psychiatric hospital". She promised.
She had 3 differents medicines she had to take every day. She had been taken those after she was released from hospital. The same bottle of pills was on our table all this time and she took the meds every morning and night. I had no suspicion of her overdosing! When i sent her to school , I sent the medicine with her.
So, that call from the teacher came really out of the blue to me!
It must be one of the worst moments of my life!!!
I felt bad that I sent her to school. I thought I should have kept her with me. She was fine as long as she was with me. I felt betrayed by her as well. How could she do such a thing, knowing that I came all the way from America here for her!? It really hurt me!
But...I must be strong for her and for myself! God is with us and He is not going to leave us helpless!
Later I was able to talk to Rosie and I asked her, why would you do such a thing? She was crying and said :I dont know!
On the same day, on Thursday I received a call from the courthouse. They told me I have been scheduled to go for hearing at court on Monday. They also asked me if Rosie was with me and if I could take her with me to the court as well.
I had to tell them what happened. But if her condition allows, I will take her to court with me as well.
The next day I received a phone call from Rosie's advocate. She asked me, if she did this, because she did not want to come to America with me?
As much as I know, Rosie wants to live with me and come to America as well.
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